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....thats what I mean when I say Yoga is no enough.It makes you very cotrolled and every sort of control is a sort of repression.So you repress and forget all about repression.It moves into the stomach, and near the diaphragm all the repressed things collect.The sromach is the only thing where you can go on throwing things;nowhere else is there any space.The english expression is good when people say 'I cannot stomach it'.
This is exactly the right expression.You need many more groups to help you explode. The day your control explodes, you will feel so free, so alive.You will feel reborn, because it will connect your divided body.

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Centuries of repression are there.You may not be aware but it is in the unconscious. And that creates fear,a fear of explosion. You are afraid of becoming aware of certain things which you have taken for granted are not in you.You can live blisfully oblivious of them but one day or the other you will have to face them, and sooner you face them the better.There are few things which can be solved at particular age. When the age has gone, those problems can not be solved.

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and the third thing, relax your breathing.Dont force it, let it happen .Let it be natural and that will relax even more.
The fourth thingis, let you body remain as immobile as possible.First find a good posture--you can sit on a pilow or mattress or whatever you feel , but once you settle, remain immobile, because if the body does not move, the mind automatically falls silent. In a moving body, the mind also continues to move, because body-mind are not two things. They are one.....it is one energy.
In the begining it will seem a little diffcult but after a few days you will enjoy it tremendously. You will see, by and by, layer upon layer of the mind starting to drop.
A moment comes when you are simply there and no mind.

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Just think of a zen monk in his cell , alone for fifteen or eighteen or even twenty years working; and continuously frustrated;nothing but frustration.Then comes a moment after eighteen years of wasted effort....almost looks like eighteen lives. It almost looks timeless as if he has been struggling for ever and ever. And the wall remains there and nothing has happened. The whole life has gone to the dust...gone to the dogs. He starts thinking to leave--enough is enough! And exactly in that moment the first satori happens..........

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Let this question become your meditation:What really do you know ?
Be very sincere and go into this question .

BELOVED OF MY HEART
1978